I apologize for not being here the past week, my husband came home from work one day last week and said, “I’ve been put on administrative leave with pay.” Tuesday of this week, he was without a job.
We began last week preparing for the day they told him. It came Saturday as a registered letter. No thank you for working with us, no we’re sorry. Simply put, he had been dismissed because he had not met one of their goals for the year. It wasn’t like he was far off from the goal, he was just short of completing it by a just a little. They told him he was short in 3 areas but when he reviewed everything there was only one he missed his goal on. Restructuring is the reason. Getting rid of a group of people that one person didn’t want to be there, of course he was able to sway the group into it. Now, even the supervisor over my husband is going to lose her job because you actually have to have people to supervise, when it’s just you and one other the policy is there is no supervisor. I don’t think she realized this.
Well, after the earth quit falling away from my feet and I could breathe, I began doing some searching. I take quite a few medications due to my Fibromyalgia and other health issues. Six different meds to be exact. When I realized our insurance was going to walk away, I panicked. I have been without money before and also health. I could live without the extravagances of life, but I could not live without my health. First things first, I had to find ways to get my medications. Oh, they are all pretty cheap except two…the one, if bought in the USA, would cost me 168 dollars a month, the second would be around 200. Along with the other medicines that are generic, that’s a lot of money. I have a wonderful doctor that has been helping me clear my body of toxins, get the sleep I need and taking care of the pain which was almost constant before I met him. I don’t want to give this doctor up!
The doctor helped me tremendously and now, the earth is beginning to turn at a more or less normal pace. I still have moments of complete panic but I am reminded that there is no need to be panicked or afraid. God has a plan, even if I don’t.
I often think of a quote by Doc Holiday to Wayatt Earp in the movie “Tombstone”. He said, ” There is no normal life, Wyatt, there’s just life.” He’s right. Money doesn’t mean a thing if you don’t have happiness and health. Life doesn’t mean a thing unless you’re content where you are at this very moment. Boy, sometimes that’s a tough thing to do…
Contentment…
My grandmother and grandfather never had much, but they always had enough. They never had fancy cars, and I can even remember when I was small, going to the outhouse because they had no indoor bathroom. I don’t think that really mattered to them. They were happy. That’s what I want to be, happy.
When I think of my husband the years he worked for the group that fired him, I see a lot of frustration and fatigue on his part. I see the times he couldn’t enjoy the family because he was so tired from driving and working in the city. Always changing due to changes in the departments he was in, he never felt settled and always like someone was out to get him. He wasn’t happy…neither was I. I have missed him for most of our married life.
He’s been home for a week now, and yes, we fought once this past week too. It didn’t stop us from loving one another and I think it actually brought us closer together. He seems so content. He seems to be relaxed even though we worry about what to do next. I am glad he lost his job because he seems to be happier. That in turn makes me happy… even in the chaos.
Will I have money? I don’t know, I really am glad for what God my Creator has decided to give us though. One thing I do know, happiness doesn’t come wrapped in money. No, you have to find it on your own…be content, know that it’s all ok. As long as we have our health, we will be fine. When this life passes, we will be rich beyond belief, but of course, it won’t be money that makes us rich then either. We have already found what brings true happiness…love. It doesn’t matter how much or little we have, happiness will be ours in the end.
